Fibromyalgia, Health, Quizzes, Randomness

Halloween <:-[

You Feel Annoyed About Halloween

Sure, you loved Halloween as a kid, but you’re kind of over it as an adult.

You may dress up and go out, but you’re not a freak for Halloween. It’s just a silly holiday.You’ll never understand those people who start preparing for the 31st months in advance.

In your opinion, being overly serious about Halloween takes all the fun out of it!


I’m glad it’s over. For another year at least. And next year there will be NO laminating in the craft zone. Kids throwing things at you. You trying to load it into the paper. Trying to load the paper into the machine while pulling out the previous one. Cutting out craft. While more children throw papers at you.  I’m not bitter not at all.

It’s a good thing the psychiatrist decided to rehydrate me (yay for puking all weekend) and give me the nutritional supplement.  Two IV bags, 1 stick.  And thankfully the nurse got it on the first try.  The vein up near my elbow on the side of my arm seems to be the best place for her.

Tomorrow, lidocaine shots.  I haven’t been as diligent as I should be.  I’ve only been going once a week because my pain has been manageable.  But the twisting doing the bloody craft has my lower back in knots.  I was going to try to do my cardio tonight, but honestly, sitting up is too much right now.

Cats, Randomness


I was downtown today and noticed the leaves.  Actually I was downtown yesterday too and took some pictures.  But it was cloudy and yucky.  Today it was nice and of course my camera battery was on the charger.

Tomorrow is Halloween.  No teaching, but students hopped up on sugar.

I tidied up the apartment and cleaned out the refrigerator.  I hung up one load of laundry and put more in the washer.  I didn’t start it though.  I’ll do that tomorrow morning so I can hang them up tomorrow night.

And as it’s nearly 9 PM, the cats are giving me the “Feed me or I’m going to starve to death in the next 10 seconds” look.

Health, Randomness, Venting

Quick Stuff

I’m trying to fight off a cold.  I’m extra achy today.  I had to go out in the crappy weather to replace a book I lost.  Thank goodness, there was one copy.

My doc moved my full dose of gabapentin to before bed.  I’ve been having vivid dreams (not nightmares) and even some lucid dreams.  But it makes me so unsteady on my feet, taking it during the day is dangerous to me and walls.

Back under the blankets for me.


Ya Ya Ya

Yes I’m still doing the daily blogging thing.  But getting home from work at 9 and then having to find something to put in my stomach that won’t piss it off leads to a lack of blogging.

Plus there’s the whole thing I don’t want to confront yet, even though that’s the exact reason I made this blog…

Health, Stress, Work

Much better

I do so much better mood/fibro wise when the sun is out.  Today ’twas so.  And it looks like it for the next 2 days (at least).

I can’t wait to get the madness of test week over.  Oh, but then comes the fun of Halloween.  I’m all for stickin’ the kids in a room and letting them watch “It’s the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown!”.  Lucky me gets to be in the craft room.  At least it won’t be a free for all this year.  They’re planning on having the classes move through in groups.
And at least my craft is making door knob hangers.  Worst thing that can happen is someone puts out an eye.  I jest.  I jest.  But I’ve got to laminate all the bloody things.

So much for tonight.  My last lesson ran over time.  And I think I still have that test to write….  *checks dropbox* … HOT DOG!  I did do it this afternoon before work. *pats self on back*

Child Abuse, Emotions

I Just Can’t

I want to write about the pink pajamas thing.  But I can’t.  I have no reason why this one particular thing upsets me so much when it was minimal compared to the usual.

I want to do my cardio program.  But I can’t.  I feel like my muscles are simply going to collapse after 5 minutes.

I want to go somewhere warm (not hot) and sunny.  But I can’t.  I’m here and I’m working and the weather changes are killing me.

What to do?  What to do?

Emotions, Health, Venting, Work

Lemonade or Apple Juice?

I thought I loved my mini.  But lately it’s been a piece of crap.  USB ports disappearing.  Just power cycling the device (printer / hard drive) doesn’t work.  Nope.  Got to power cycle the whole computer.

Let it go to sleep by itself, at least 5 times a week, it won’t wake up.  Either that or its losing contact with the monitor.

Of course, when I trekked across town to take it to the Apple retailer, they could reproduce the sleep problem and they didn’t have any random USB thing to try to replicate that.  So now….. I have to take a morning and go to the repair place.  That involves unhooking everything, boxing it back up and going god knows where.  The guy at the store wrote the address for a cab driver after I told him I don’t do subways.

I did get three tests written this weekend.  One yesterday and two today.  I think I can use some old tests as a template for three new ones.

I’m half watching Law & Order LA.  They just started showing it on Fox Korea.  I’ll give it a chance.  I’ve liked all the other L&O spin off.

Started sunny today, now its cloudy and looking at rain tomorrow.  These weather changes are sending my fibro into over drive.  In positive news I dumped stupid GP and found one who is an internal medicine doc.  I’m off the thyroid drug.  It was such a low dose that I’m not sure it was doing anything.  It was mostly me not wanting to see stupid GP and me wanting to know if it was responsible for the anorexia and taste perversion.  Nope.  I have to wait until about the first of the year before he can recheck my thyroid to make sure everything is out of my system and it has had a chance to stabilize.  I haven’t been able to do my workouts this week, the fatigue was too much.  When I saw cool IM I weighed myself.  Another 10 down.  That means I’ve lost somewhere between 60 and 65 pounds in the last year.  Oh and my pizza face seems a bit better.  *crosses fingers*

Cats, Fibromyalgia, Health

Pizza Face

I’ve got folliculitis (??) and my face and arms look like pepperoni pizzas.  Saw a derm twice before today.  Gave me all topical stuff.  No change.  Got a second opinion from someone else.  Same dx, different treatment.  7 days of oral meds plus an antibiotic ointment.

I was feeling good until today.  I  couldn’t get warm.  My boss even remarked I had a sweater on.  But the building (and my apartment) were colder than outside.  The weather was changing all day and the fibro pain is flaring up.  I was really tired today, for no particularly good reason.  I guess I’ll try to get Dr. K to treat my neck and upper back tomorrow and then do the PT.

It’s raining now, I’m going to close the windows and turn the heat on low and try to get warm.  I will find an electric blanket in the country if it kills me.

Oh yeah, cats like their new food.

Cats, Mental Health, Stress

Stress? Huh?

It’s Monday.  That was the first problem.  I was sick all weekend and this morning I couldn’t drag my butt out of bed.  Thus, no meds until tomorrow.  This morning I stepped in cat puke on the way to the bathroom.  Great.  I think I got a bad bag of food because neither Gidgette or Ivory will eat it.  I came home and there was poor Gidgette dry heaving and finally bringing up a bit of water.  Put dinner in fridge.  Put cat in carrier.  Put shoes back on.  And turn right around (the vet is in the same building I work in).  Three sticks to get enough blood while I’m trying to hold up an 11 pound cat up.  My arms were shaking, I was upset.  Blah blah blah.  Some abnormalities mainly due to not eating.  So I have to wait 3 hours before I can give her her medicine which means I’ll be up late.

Now I’m in no mood for diner.  I’m cold and I’m tired and I hurt like hell.  All this started happening when I changed their food (my vet doesn’t carry the kind they ate before).

*le sigh*

Hopefully I’ll get some sleep tonight.

Cats, Health, Mac OS X


Welllllllllllllllllll… totally slept through the alarm this morning.  Woke up just in time to shower and make it to work.  I have to get up tomorrow so I can see the derm.  Ugh.  I look like a freak.


OMG.  I love the first round of American Idol.  Sadly it’s the only thing on TV.  I’m going to go listen to some podcasts.  Looking forward to my nice warm bed.  Speaking of podcasts, I updated my iPod to iOS5.  New stuff in it.  5 free gigs of space in iCloud, though seems pretty useless for me.  It’s a good thing I sync my iPod with my Win7 netbook.  I’m guessing it won’t play nicely if you aren’t running Lion on a Mac.  Speaking of Macs.  I hate mine.  It won’t wake up from sleep at least 4 days a week.  It beachballs even with 4 gigs of RAM in the thing.  It took nearly 10 seconds to open a little program like Terminal and get me to my prompt.  In Linux (same CPU, less RAM I think) it was instantaneous.  It’s still under AppleCare, which is good.  I think I’m going to bitch about it this weekend.  And if I’m lucky, I’ll get a new one, which should come with Lion (and better hardware I think).