Wow. Things changed completely. Gone is the Lexapro and most of the tricyclics. In their place, Paxil, Effexor, Risperdol and Imiprimine. He changed me from Ativan back to Valium (actually I think he’s old school and forgets the newer benzos). Klonopin was perfect, but the dumb folks at the Korean FDA have said it can no longer be used to treat anxiety disorder, just seizure disorder. It makes no sense to me. And I guess the Korean FDA frowns on off label use of medications.
I’m a bit worried about the Effexor because it gave me such bad nausea in the past. He’s got me on a small dose of perphenazine to help prevent the nausea.
I didn’t sleep well last night. The Risperdol made me sleepy and I slept for about an hour and a half. Then I was up for the rest of the night. That might be more due to the migraine than the change in meds. We’re going to give it to next Monday and reevaluate then.
How do I feel? Frustrated. That’s for sure. I feel like I’ve been going backwards rather than forward. The nightmares and flashbacks have been bad. Some of the recent ones were triggered by my trip to Seoul and sleeping on the floor there. I’m not ready to write about it yet. And I’m still trying to clarify in my mind what happened. I’m having a hard time keeping it together at work. What I really need is a vacation. I’ll get that at the end of July, but that seems forever and a day away. I’m going to try to make the best of my weekends and not stress my body too much.
I talked to my orthopedist because my tendonitis in my wrist seems to be coming back. I asked him about the generalized pain I’ve been having for years. He diagnosed me with neuropathic pain. He, however, didn’t give me anything to treat it. The TCAs I’ve been on are considered a first line treatment, but they aren’t helping. I may talk to Dr. P again about prescribing something. I have to go back to the ortho (Dr. K) on Friday and I’ll ask him if he can prescribe something. I’m not even bothering with Dr. What’s His Name (stupid internal medicine guy) because he’ll just tell me to go see a specialist. I see him once a month to get my thyroid meds, but I’m considering looking for someone new.
I guess that’s it. It’s almost 9 PM. Gidgette has a built-in timer in her stomach and she’s telling me it’s dinner time. Plus it’s time to watch Myth Busters (yay for blowing stuff up).