…may be an understatement.
I’ve been having (what I’m assuming are) horrible body memories. Jigsaw Analogy asked if I had gotten checked out. Ummm… no. I asked one of the Korean teachers at work if she knew of a gyn that speaks English. It was horribly embarrassing for me to even ask her that. She doesn’t. She asked me why. I started to cry as I tried to explain. I hate this so much.
So Jeannie called a doctor she knows and she’s going to go with me tomorrow. I’m terrified. I can’t stand going to the gyn as it is. But I’m in a strange country and a co-worker is going with me. It’s like a nightmare. I know I’ll feel a little bit better when I know it’s all in my head (so to speak). But I’m so dreading have to have an exam done.
Sorry, I just needed to get this out. Good vibes would be very much appreciated.