I have them.
I’m having extremely severe almost unrelenting body memories right now. I’m so anxious, I can feel the tension in my back and shoulders and neck. I’m trying to use all my coping skills. I REALLY want to cut. I’m doing everything I can to avoid it. This is exhausting. I don’t have anything useful to write. I just needed to get this out there before I scream and/or do something I’ll regret in the morning.