Some progress


I’m trying to make progress. It’s slow going.I managed to get all of the dishes done. I even managed to wash the dishes after dinner last night instead of letting them languish in the sink.

I got the sheet back on my bed. I put the cases back on the pillows. They’ve been off for weeks now. A few weeks ago, that stupid cough came back with a vengeance and it was triggering vomiting if I ate. So foolishly I ate and then laid down a few hours later. As soon as I did, I started coughing. And then I didn’t make it to the bathroom before vomiting. I left the sheets off my bed until I was sure I wasn’t going to get sick again. But then I couldn’t find the motivation to put them back on.

I got most of the apartment cleaned up. The porch part with the washing machine is still a mess. But at least I don’t have to see that all the time. I’ve done my laundry and hung it up to dry. So now I need to move it into the wardrobe.

I’m trying to take a lesson from our favorite chimp. I’m trying to tackle just one thing at a time. It’s the only way I’m going to get things done.

I’m trying not to let the depression and anxiety get the best of me. If I can get up and make it to work and not kill someone during the day, then it’s been a fairly good day. If I can manage to get one decent meal into my stomach, then it’s been a fairly good day. If I can get to bed before 3 AM, then it’s been a fairly good day.

Just one thing at a time. Just one moment at a time. No looking to the future. Just focusing on the present.

I’m trying…


About katm

I'm just your typical depressed donkey. I'm an abuse survivor. I deal with the pain and stiffness and other fun stuff that goes with fibromyalgia. I used to teach English for a living but because of my health, that isn't any option anymore. I love to cook and feel most in my element when I'm in the kitchen tinkering around.

5 responses »

  1. Step by step keep trying. See the light and move towards it. Bless you, kat

  2. itty bitty baby steps work just fine, hope you are feeling better soon,

    peace and blessings


  3. I find a good clean round the house always puts me in a more positive frame of mind.


  4. I haven’t heard that song in a bit :-)
    I keep saying I’m going to catch up with you on Skype and it doesn’t happen cause I’m sleeping half the time too. Basically I’m saying we know what you’re going through. Moment to moment and wondering why on earth you keep going like that. But I think I know. I think I realize that this is a moment that will lead to better moments so I bare it and wait for the prize moment when my mind is quiet.

    we wish you peace of mind,

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