Scar… No. Terrified
T – 13 hours and counting.
I’ve taken my regular night-time meds. I took the PRN med Dr. P prescribed. I’m trying to breathe. It was easier at work because I was busy. Now it’s just me and my thoughts. I’m going to take my iPod and listen to a very academic podcast (This Week in Virology, FWIW). I have to concentrate on what they’re saying to mostly understand. On the positive side, they’re humorous too.
I don’t want to go, but I know I can’t run away. On some level I need to prove to myself that I am stronger than my fears. And I have to remember there are hands in my mouth, not other things.
I think I’m going to sign off and try to get some sleep. Either that or cry.
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I'm just your typical depressed donkey. I happen to teach English to small and not so small Korean children. I really do love my job even though I might complain a bit.
You are much much stronger than you ever realise. Let us know how you got on. xx
I’m thinking about you today.
5 hours to go. I’ve given up on sleeping. So I’m going to be productive and work on my website.
Just a thought … when I go … I take a blindfold and my ipod … so I can’t see anything and I listen to VERY loud music … so I can’t hear anything …. it helped when I had to have my four front teeth out! Just an idea xx
iPod is definitely coming. For me, podcasts are more soothing. I have some highly technical ones which help keep me in the present because I have to concentrate on them.
And if all else fails, I have my podcast on serial killers. The psychology is fascinating, especially as some of them were tortured as children. What drives a person to kill or to split or to just be crazy (like me)?
So the dentist replied (after I told him what I was listening to) I’ve had people listen to classical, rap, hard rock and probably every other form of music. You’re the first to listen to a lecture.
What can I say? I’m not normal.